...you
change as a person. This can be in a multitude of ways. For me, I have
been able to say what I want and to stand up for yourself. I have been
able to speak up when things are not working out or when I'm not happy.
I've always been a "don't rock the boat" type of person so this is a
whole 180 for me. And it feels good. Without it sounding swarmy or
cheesy, you realise your worth and that when you're undervalued you need
to speak up or step out or seek changes.
...time is very
important. Never underestimate how little we all have. When you're only
faced with a year you realise weeks, months, days matter in a way they
never could. You can't take months to make decisions, you can't let
shitty moods take over your entire week and cloud it, you can't stay or
do things in the hope that stuff just needs time to get better.
...you
will miss your family and friends and your whole previous life in
varying ways. There are times when I have a bad day and realise I have
no one here that will be there for me no matter what in the way your
family is "obligated" to. There are times when I wish I could be
transported back to my old flat, my old room, even my old car to just
feel like things are going to be alright. There are times when all you
need are the arms of a familiar friend to wrap around you, tell you you
are loved and make you feel okay.
...you will meet some of
the nicest people in the world that you instantly click with and wonder
where have they been your entire life.
...you will also
meet some of the not-so-nice people in the world and thank whoever in
charge that you have been spared them for the majority of your life.
...you
will avoid all social media because it can be a sad reminder of the
life you left behind and how surprisingly the world has moved on without
you.
...you will also stalk all your friends online to
ensure you don't miss a single moment of their lives so things never
change. and you'll have friends who are still friends no matter what.
...you
will apply hundreds of jobs and question your worth, your skills and
your competence. You will get rejected by Starbucks (happened to my
friend, also called Allison), you will be forced into group interviews
and you will never hear back from people.
...you will do some jobs where you get unlimited praise, you will feel like you have achieved something and you'll feel great.
...you'll
realise the same problems follow you everywhere and just shows that the
world is not that different. Work will be hard or unfulfilling, boys
won't call you back or be mean to you, there will be mean girls, there
will money problems, there will be traffic problems, you will get caught
in the rain without an umbrella and you will question why you made
these life choices daily.
...you miss little things like
getting coffee with your work besties, swapping stories the morning
after with your girls and gays, your crazy family lunches, the taste of
your mother's cooking, hugging your niece and nephew and your favourite
bars and clubs.
...you realise how important it is, to have
your house feel like a home. You feel like you can do anything if you
start off from the right place.
...little things matter.
Whether it's getting a cup of coffee every day or hanging up pictures of
your friends and family, treating yourself to new clothes and nail
polish, if they are your favourite things, they will make you happy.
...things happen for a reason.
Ex-Oh! Ex-Oh!
